The desire to change can be as powerful as a Category 5 hurricane. It brings such force and impacts ALL in its path once manifested into reality. What happens when we seem to not move past just having the desire to change or to do something different? We become complacent with life and give up on our dreams or tuck them away until the right time. When is ever the right time “The Right Time”. “Me” on the other hand, I went through the motions. I gave it all up, because of self-doubt and plainly not having the time to contribute to this wild idea of manifesting dreams. I had become pessimistic about life. A system of thinking that destroyed my hope I had for myself. How did I get to this place? Well, it was easy. A dash of self-criticism had done it for me. I did not realize for a very long time I unconsciously talked myself out of the fact that I could ever be great or successful in something…or anything. Becoming self-aware allowed me to stop believing the worst about myself and it took discipline to unshackle the thoughts that held me captive for so many years. But, I didn’t do it alone. It was by the grace of God.
Finding self-discipline to shift your thoughts is a chore in itself. There are things we do in life that we don’t question. We just do it because its something that is necessary. For instance, we know that we need to eat daily to retain strength to get through the day and what about going to work? Gotta get those bills paid right. I had to create a healthier mindset. The way I processed things and how I treated myself mentally can be interpreted as hitting the cement face-first on a hot day. I started reflecting on my childhood and all the positives I was told that I conveniently dismissed. I loved to write ever since I was a little girl but I never really imagined that anyone would want to read any of it until one day my second-grade teacher picked up a poem I’d written. She stared at me pass those black-rimmed glasses that sat on her nose. “Did you write this?” she said. I stumbled a bit as the word “yes” crept from my lips unsure of what she would say next. She smiled and told me how beautiful it was and this moment created a mental shift. It was the day I wanted to become a writer. I reaffirmed what was always dear to me. It was my self-expression. I did not have a problem inspiring others but I lacked the inspiration I needed to confidently create.
Focusing on the positives pulled me closer to the person I NEEDED to be. The desire for self-expression was so strong that it became a requirement. There were bad days in all of this but over time the GOOD began to outweigh the bad. I became consciously aware of my thoughts which was a phenomenal discovery. Whenever a negative thought rose up I began to tear it down at its root. I felt strong and focused on other aspects of my life but it seemed more obstacles would come to knock me back into the mindset that had been nothing but detrimental to my soul. My perspective changed about my obstacles. They became lessons for spiritual growth to take place. I had to remain disciplined through prayer and meditating on God’s word. Strengthening my spiritual self was like connecting the dots that led toward a mental evolution. I became FREE! I would be dishonest if I said the feelings of being mentally free was a lasting one for me. Everyday can be a battle against the flesh which only can be won by having a relationship with God.
A disciplined mind admits the existence of the truth. The TRUTH is that the mental state will be tested and tried through life’s experiences. Please take the time to learn what the lesson is speaking to you. In some situations, facing repeated hurdles can be less than enjoyable. Unfortunately, it is what it takes for some to realize what exactly is required to move to the next shift in consciousness. In the meantime, dreams are only what you leave them to be. ~Grow and Glow in God!